The story is about a girl that is trying to learn about love and it was funny and awesome in some parts (for my taste that is). As I go on to the story I realise some part of the story that is what I always did when I have crush with someone that is. 'Yeah, I guess I was wrong about that' and 'I don't care about her any more'. (It was meant for me when I think I love someone)
Well maybe the part that I don't care any more is a bit different. I still care her as a friend that is I don't want to see her sad or in trouble. The point is that, this is how I reject my feelings of loving someone. The question is WHY???
Today's topic is actually about reflecting on myself on why I refuse to fall in love to people...
Love is something precious and a give from ALLAH to his creatures and we must appreciate it. It's not that I denied it or refuse it. It is because I feel that I don't really know what love is. (It is not that I am lack of love malay said 'kurang kasih sayang') no its not. It is because I thought that I did't really feel the love of ALLAH and the Prophet Muhammad s.w.t. and what is the base of loving someone if I does not know the love of ALLAH?
I pray, recite Quran, try to do good deeds and avoid bad things but yet I did't really consistent and sincerely doing it. I was blind with the world. (games,fun,friends,animals) but why did't I really go into it?? (sincerely praying)??
These are what people usually said lack of iman. Yes teenagers these days lack of iman. They just know how to enjoy or make money or maybe boicot or hate someone or some people without trying to reflect on themselves. Yes that is what I saw in myself. I need to be a better person first before I am able to love someone that is I need to love ALLAH first before others but yet I still did't try it.
Yes, the solution is Istiqomah where I need to constant doing good deeds and do what ALLAH told to do. And yes again that it was very hard to do. Whatever.. anyway I am still trying to find the mood or someone to encourage me. sometimes being with your friends can make you better. That is what I'm trying to do bit sometimes I think like 'Well I think I am better living alone' or 'Fine, I don't want to trouble myself just because of love to human'... hehe.. sound sad was't it? well just hoping I would change that cause most of my friends and family scold and lectured me when I said that.
That's it for my expression of feelings when I read that Manga when the statement of letting go of someone... hehe. Hopefully this matters does not come out again cause I a phantom... ^^,
That's it for my expression of feelings when I read that Manga when the statement of letting go of someone... hehe. Hopefully this matters does not come out again cause I a phantom... ^^,
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